Although I'm not really understand this feeling but since I saw his face, something come in my head. His face distracting me. I don't know he really are and every detail about him. The only thing that I know about him was, his occupation. My "Mauemi deulloyo" everytime I see his picture. I can't describe what is this mean? I really want to figure it out, why am I felt this way everytime I look his picture. Seriously, I don't know who you are? Why did you keep distracting and disturbing my peace? It's been past 4 or 5 years I take time to forget everything but seem I can't get rid of it. Hear his voice also make my Mauemi Deulloyo... Why? I need a reason? Everytime I saw his face, he seem familiar and deep inside my heart, I feel like missing him as I have a relationship with him? I can't control my emotion and tears whenever I saw his picture. I can't imagine it if one day, God will made it up for us, meeting somewhere coincidentally. What should I do? What I will do? How am I suppose to react? Is he feel the same as me or I'm just delusion and imagining thing so tough? But why the feeling seems so real? Why? Why his voice bothering me? He's not handsome as what everyone said, I think, there's a lot handsome guy out there compared to him? But I still can't get rid of it. His voice really attach to deep inside my mauemi..
I did told "somebody I used to know" about this feeling and they said:
1. You crazy
2. Maybe you too much watch movie
3. You alone and single right now
4. Delusion
5. Are you fall with him?
6. You are his fanatic fan maybe... etc..
But what I think?
1. You are crazy
2. Too much fantasy but some part of my heart says;
3. I did met him before
4. I miss him
5. I love him as much I love myself and my family.
6. I feel like it's been a long time that I never met him
7. Who are you?
8. Is this what people say "LOVE" or is this what they call "OBSESSION"?
9. If I'm obsess with him, didn't I should know every tiny little thing about him? Shouldn't I follow him everywhere he go since I know who he is and what he do know?
10. and if I'm fall in love with him, why did I fall in love with a wrong person? Why I can't get rid of this feeling?
I's tuck in the middle! I can't think so much about it!